17 April 2015 - Friday Night

Once upon a time, friday nights were filled with anticipation on where to go for a party, big or small. Dressing up to go somewhere after a hard day's work was reason enough to look forward to work on thursday night.  Some friday nights were spent catching midnight movies with Jfk or going to JB for a massage in the wee hours. Some fridays were with my bak bak sistas, Rubes and Viv, having dinner happily. Some fridays were spent with Edwin and Sean.

Age has been catching up. Either that or I became so unfit due to the lack of exercise. Or worst, both reasons haha But the thought of a party is no longer as enticing as it was before. Though the drinking part is till a favourite pastime. These days, i prefer sitting down sipping wine where i can have a decent conversation and not have to shout to say something because of loud music.

Tonight, Jfk fetched both Samuel and me. Dinner was settled at a coffee shop at Siglap. Nothing fanciful, char siew rice and mixed vegetable rice. But the feeling was great. It felt good to sit at the corner of the coffee shop surrounded by aunties (i am an auntie too), uncles, 2 chio bu(s) and a bunch of JC boys.  And the birds were flying around a nearby tree chirping away loudly. This is really "gong jiao wei" literally. After dinner, all of of us went to the clinic for different reasons. Then it's time to go home. It is indeed a blessing to be healthy and alive to spend time with our loved ones.

Samuel changed me. Much as I teach him as his mother, he taught me not to fret the small stuff in life. Now and then, he would sprout out some words of wisdom, which is of cos unknown to him that those were wise words haha  He taught me how to enjoy the company of our extended family, he taught me that everyone was equal in the eyes of children. He showed me the kampong spirit by insisting that we keep the main door and gate open so that he can go over to our neighbour's place to play, and them to come over ours.  His little eyes are filled with love, hope and kindness, in a world where it is easy to become jaded and cynical. Simple joys of life is watching him eat his favourite pasta as if that was the best food in the world. He does not understand the difference in value of a meal in a restaurant and a hawker center yet. The only difference to him now is "got air con or not?" His concept of happiness is very simple, just like how it should be even for adults. Daddy and mummy by his side, eat his favourite food, play with anyone who would play with him, play his favourite toy and stay very curious about what is going on around him. Such as why did the pigeon pooped in our window? Why are there pamphlets on the floor? Why the lift is like that? Why I need to go to school? Why is Lucas shorter than me? Why you know more words than me? Why i need to do this? etc etc

Quite a number of terrible things happened recently, homo sapiens are creatures that are complex and sometimes dangerous. But there are always the nicer ones just round the corner, if we bother to look around carefully.

Everything happens for a reason indeed and there is a season for every change. I think I'm over the "champion grumbling" that i have been feeling for weeks.

I feel very blessed, and tonight, it became clearer to me again. Thanks for the reminder.