I am really stressed and kinda moody..cos i see unfinished work and the OCD nature in me felt sick and tired. So bad that i lost my appetite for dinner...
As i sat on my bed and stare into space, sulk and start thinking about what i should complete first tomorrow, i saw a book "Happiness is..." and read the following stuff below.
Happiness is learning to worry less and trust God more.
"Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about what happens to you." 1 Peter 5:6
Focus on your work, not your worries: Worry is never a valid substitute for work. So get out there, do your best, and leave the rest up to God
Amen.
I am finally getting to be sensitive enough to listen to His words. Suddenly i feel happy again :) tomorrow, i shall continue to give my best shot and do every outstanding things as fast as possible...and leave the rest to Him.
Just hope and pray that my emotions will not get the better of me tomorrow and i start sulking again...
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
11 September, 2007 - Miss SPG lurvesssss English
My backache is acting up again..wah last week was tightness in the chest..so bad that i could not breathe properly..then followed by headache and then felt like vomiting...symtoms of stress for me...working late is starting to take it's toil on me ah??
Had dinner dinner with Sarah after work this evening :) she is really like a child, can't tell her age and that she is a mother of 2 pretty gals keke meet up with Jeff Toh and gang after dinner :))
English...i realised that for every new acquaintances that i meet, if i can share private jokes in English, it's almost like auto, we click :) Edwin and Alex both speak to me in English only and i think i can gel well with them. Edwin is the typical ang mo pah...who thinks anything China is LC hahaha like how i coined the term cheena pok :p so very bad of me. I am SPG??? I like to be able to converse effectively in English and Mandarin switching effortlessly between the 2 languages hmmm but most times, i express myself better in English...but i hate slangs..especially those fake American accents believed to have been acquired after living a few years abroad..total bullshit i guess...or people trying to slang it like ang moh, Singlish sounds better. Then again, i cannot tahan Jervis's insistence on using proper English, meaning grammatically correct and no short forms,in all mobile text messages haiz that's just so anal retentive of him.
Like he got irritated and all uptight when i text the below:-
Me and my short forms: "Hey didi, i will b late. can u go up 1st? c u in 5"
Jervis's anal retentive reply: "It's alright then, i will go up to the book store myself. Call me when you are here"
Jervoise's even shorter text: "Sis, me wun b gg 2 ur plce. Hv to fetch mum aft work, eatg wif her."
Now i am very careful when i have to text Jervis...i make sure i spell out everything in full and in proper English that he will not disapprove of sigh...
Today as i was typing away...i really missed dancing on the dance floor with the loud music blaring in the background...i miss Zouk!!!!!!! Comtemplating forcing hubby to drive up to KL to check out the Zouk there...just to make sure i am not missing out on anything cool and happening. Most of all to EAT hahaha ;) I guess i had enough invasion of babies for the time being...while i can now feel my clock, i am still resistant to the idea. I can see kids EVERYWHERE!! In the magazines, malls, food courts, church etc..kinda freaking me out now. Is this the sign that i should get one now? Guess my maternal instincts are just never that strong...or is it just fear...
Chilling out...Alicia is jio-ing..so i shall do just that...haven't seen her for awhile now..and it's time to catch up.
I must be feeling damn stressed...cos i feel i am sprouting nonsense now..
Help, God
Had dinner dinner with Sarah after work this evening :) she is really like a child, can't tell her age and that she is a mother of 2 pretty gals keke meet up with Jeff Toh and gang after dinner :))
English...i realised that for every new acquaintances that i meet, if i can share private jokes in English, it's almost like auto, we click :) Edwin and Alex both speak to me in English only and i think i can gel well with them. Edwin is the typical ang mo pah...who thinks anything China is LC hahaha like how i coined the term cheena pok :p so very bad of me. I am SPG??? I like to be able to converse effectively in English and Mandarin switching effortlessly between the 2 languages hmmm but most times, i express myself better in English...but i hate slangs..especially those fake American accents believed to have been acquired after living a few years abroad..total bullshit i guess...or people trying to slang it like ang moh, Singlish sounds better. Then again, i cannot tahan Jervis's insistence on using proper English, meaning grammatically correct and no short forms,in all mobile text messages haiz that's just so anal retentive of him.
Like he got irritated and all uptight when i text the below:-
Me and my short forms: "Hey didi, i will b late. can u go up 1st? c u in 5"
Jervis's anal retentive reply: "It's alright then, i will go up to the book store myself. Call me when you are here"
Jervoise's even shorter text: "Sis, me wun b gg 2 ur plce. Hv to fetch mum aft work, eatg wif her."
Now i am very careful when i have to text Jervis...i make sure i spell out everything in full and in proper English that he will not disapprove of sigh...
Today as i was typing away...i really missed dancing on the dance floor with the loud music blaring in the background...i miss Zouk!!!!!!! Comtemplating forcing hubby to drive up to KL to check out the Zouk there...just to make sure i am not missing out on anything cool and happening. Most of all to EAT hahaha ;) I guess i had enough invasion of babies for the time being...while i can now feel my clock, i am still resistant to the idea. I can see kids EVERYWHERE!! In the magazines, malls, food courts, church etc..kinda freaking me out now. Is this the sign that i should get one now? Guess my maternal instincts are just never that strong...or is it just fear...
Chilling out...Alicia is jio-ing..so i shall do just that...haven't seen her for awhile now..and it's time to catch up.
I must be feeling damn stressed...cos i feel i am sprouting nonsense now..
Help, God
Monday, September 10, 2007
10 September, 2007 - Faith Inducing Incident
Drove to church for the first time yesterday...and got lost :( supposed to exit PIE but exited Simei/Tampines instead... Pray hard that i would get there on time cos i was supposed to be meeting Mark at 8.45. Anyway this is going to sound a little clich'e to a cynic's ears but somehow, He see brought me out of the "mess" hahaha i am a total road idiot so it's amazing how i got there by looking at the signs and listening to the small voice in my head :) and got there right on time, yup, even with the time taken to park..i am absolutely lousy with parking haiz
I have mixed feelings this Sunday..cos i am actually going to bade my church friends bye..am going to another church for more spiritual growth...to gain more bible knowledge and to start spreading His goodness and words...and possibly mission works.
I am really grateful to Him for all that He has done in my life :) Everytime i compare my life in this workplace to all the others before, i feel so blessed. Daryl still calls now and then to encourage me, Sarah is always a listening ear, Edwin is also such a sweetie to message me not to stay late keke I know all these would not have happpened without my Father watching over me. I am really thankful and appreciative of all the people i met...even my suppliers are nice people. Amen
Only things are my temper and emotions. I can be too emotional for my own good...and i am only human, so i have to learn curb my temper. To a dearest sista..Christians are also humans with failings..we are not perfect..i chose to steer clear of church activities many years ago cos i saw the unnerving acts of mortal ways. And i thought to myself "you call yourself a Christian and yet you are doing this." I thought it was just way to much hypocrisy for me to stomach and i said bye and welcomed Buddhism, temple, trance praying and seeking divination. Buddhism is also pure in its teachings...that's where my grey areas come in. If a religion teaches one to be good, it is acceptable but "idolotary" is not allowed. In fact i am trying to get a copy of the Koran. Anyway, my point is, there are always black sheeps in everything. I was a blind follower of Christ til recently when He has touched my life and let me felt peace...something that has been lacking in my life for a long while. Friends sometimes disappoint us, people fail us, family sometimes hurt us but God never forsake us.
Matthew 6:33-34
But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Errr for some strange reason, i miss dancing sigh...not the drinks tho...maybe i should jio some gal pals and hit Zouk for old times sake keke i know who i should call :)) do some calories burning stunts on the dance floor or up on the stage heehee cannot lose my fun loving self even though i am trying to be pious..
Hey spiritual mentor, dancing with gal pals and never get drunk is ok right? keke
Faith faith faith faith faith :) beliving in Him is the best thing that has ever happened to housecat :)
I have mixed feelings this Sunday..cos i am actually going to bade my church friends bye..am going to another church for more spiritual growth...to gain more bible knowledge and to start spreading His goodness and words...and possibly mission works.
I am really grateful to Him for all that He has done in my life :) Everytime i compare my life in this workplace to all the others before, i feel so blessed. Daryl still calls now and then to encourage me, Sarah is always a listening ear, Edwin is also such a sweetie to message me not to stay late keke I know all these would not have happpened without my Father watching over me. I am really thankful and appreciative of all the people i met...even my suppliers are nice people. Amen
Only things are my temper and emotions. I can be too emotional for my own good...and i am only human, so i have to learn curb my temper. To a dearest sista..Christians are also humans with failings..we are not perfect..i chose to steer clear of church activities many years ago cos i saw the unnerving acts of mortal ways. And i thought to myself "you call yourself a Christian and yet you are doing this." I thought it was just way to much hypocrisy for me to stomach and i said bye and welcomed Buddhism, temple, trance praying and seeking divination. Buddhism is also pure in its teachings...that's where my grey areas come in. If a religion teaches one to be good, it is acceptable but "idolotary" is not allowed. In fact i am trying to get a copy of the Koran. Anyway, my point is, there are always black sheeps in everything. I was a blind follower of Christ til recently when He has touched my life and let me felt peace...something that has been lacking in my life for a long while. Friends sometimes disappoint us, people fail us, family sometimes hurt us but God never forsake us.
Matthew 6:33-34
But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Errr for some strange reason, i miss dancing sigh...not the drinks tho...maybe i should jio some gal pals and hit Zouk for old times sake keke i know who i should call :)) do some calories burning stunts on the dance floor or up on the stage heehee cannot lose my fun loving self even though i am trying to be pious..
Hey spiritual mentor, dancing with gal pals and never get drunk is ok right? keke
Faith faith faith faith faith :) beliving in Him is the best thing that has ever happened to housecat :)
Thursday, September 6, 2007
5 September, 2007 - Sony Ericsson W580i
Work late today again..like what's new..at this rate, i am not having a life man hmmmph hubby picked me, have dinner at Ang Mo Kio, visited Marvin's place, mother's place and SURPRISE!!! I was presented with W580i yay yay yay wah i was damn thrilled, elated, happy..you name it. Anyway i was supposed to get it on Thursday and i have been thinking about it for so long and now it's right in my hands heehee my belated birthday present from hubby :)))
Finally a new phone :) Not a phone fanatic, dislike changing phones but after almost 3 years of using Nokia 7610, i guess it's time for a new phone :) have been bio-ing Nokia N95 for awhile til i read about all the negative reviews and i think it's really not worth it to pay such a hefty sum of money for a problematic phone hmmm
Saw it for the first time at the Sony flagshop and fall in love with it. Stylish grey, sleek and oh so coooool. Now i am the cool owner of a cool phone, thank you Father for letting me discover this phone rather than thinking about Nokia N95.
While hubby is busy trying to figure out how to transfer my contacts from Nokia to Sony Ericcson, i am sitting here blogging away my happiness heehee i can't help much since he is the IT smart alec while i am the errr IT idiot :p
I am one HAPPY busy cat today *meowz*
Finally a new phone :) Not a phone fanatic, dislike changing phones but after almost 3 years of using Nokia 7610, i guess it's time for a new phone :) have been bio-ing Nokia N95 for awhile til i read about all the negative reviews and i think it's really not worth it to pay such a hefty sum of money for a problematic phone hmmm
Saw it for the first time at the Sony flagshop and fall in love with it. Stylish grey, sleek and oh so coooool. Now i am the cool owner of a cool phone, thank you Father for letting me discover this phone rather than thinking about Nokia N95.
While hubby is busy trying to figure out how to transfer my contacts from Nokia to Sony Ericcson, i am sitting here blogging away my happiness heehee i can't help much since he is the IT smart alec while i am the errr IT idiot :p
I am one HAPPY busy cat today *meowz*
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Maine's random thoughts
Somehow i feel that the more i surrender my life to Him, the more i feel life is beautiful. Everything is going well and i am happy though stressed. He seems to be molding my life and me..obedience...this seems to be the main thing i need to learn for now. Emptiness no longer invades my heart even when i feel lost. And i even know how come i feel lost now...cos' my bible knowledge is weak and i need to define myself based on the words of God. Such great contrast to just not so long ago...when i had often felt lost but have no idea why...and then i started to feel frustrated and it's a vicious cycle.
Somehow there is peace :)
Serve serve serve and i wonder what's my gifting
Somehow there is peace :)
Serve serve serve and i wonder what's my gifting
4 September 2007 - Elijah - Winning When The Whole World is Falling Apart
It's only Tuesday and i am starting to feel stressed already..so many issues this week and i feel kinda overwhelmed by all the emails. I stayed in the office to clear my work and left only at 10pm...to think i skipped lunch today just to clear emails and yet i still cannot finish work earlier. But i really thank Him for giving me strength and courage to plough on. I prayed for mental strength to be able to work smartly and He answered my prayer :) cos though i had to stay late to clear my work, at least by the time i left, it's more or less under control keke
I was late for church on Sunday and had to sit outside for the service. Good cos' somehow, i was more attentive. Topic today is "Winning When The Whole World is Falling Apart". Elijah suffered from emotional burnout..something that all humans do.
1) Release your burden
God can carry them better than you
2) Re-tune to God's voice
God is speaking to you
3) Return to God's calling
God wants to give you a new beginning
4 channels in our life:-
1) Devil's voice
2) Other people's voice
3) My own voice
4) God's voice
How to tune to God's words:-
1) Availability
2) Obedience (something i find so difficult..i am guai lan...)
3) Everytime God has words for you, submit it to your leaders or spiritual parents for advise (i need to fine tune my hearing!!!)
4) Be careful about the company/people i gather around with (yes f**k insecure women for eg hahaha)
Had beer with Daryl at Brewerks last night, and made some confessions..and saying them made me feel free...releasing my burden...free from bondages and healing is done. I am really trying to be as obedient as possible and forget about the "I", the nominative singular pronoun, used by a speaker in referring to himself or herself. It's all about Him now...how can it slip my mind at times???
Anyway, i have to thank Him for allowing me to be myself without being judgmental and so forgiving and accepting of all the flaws i have.
Jeremiah 32:27
"Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?" (i cannot help smiling when i read this verse heehee)
Daryl said to pray for directions and career. Can even give Him a list of where i want the job to be at, how much i want my pay to be bla bla bla. If He thinks it's time, He will open doors *wondering*
I think i know which church i should attend now. Need a cell group and bible lessons.
I was late for church on Sunday and had to sit outside for the service. Good cos' somehow, i was more attentive. Topic today is "Winning When The Whole World is Falling Apart". Elijah suffered from emotional burnout..something that all humans do.
1) Release your burden
God can carry them better than you
2) Re-tune to God's voice
God is speaking to you
3) Return to God's calling
God wants to give you a new beginning
4 channels in our life:-
1) Devil's voice
2) Other people's voice
3) My own voice
4) God's voice
How to tune to God's words:-
1) Availability
2) Obedience (something i find so difficult..i am guai lan...)
3) Everytime God has words for you, submit it to your leaders or spiritual parents for advise (i need to fine tune my hearing!!!)
4) Be careful about the company/people i gather around with (yes f**k insecure women for eg hahaha)
Had beer with Daryl at Brewerks last night, and made some confessions..and saying them made me feel free...releasing my burden...free from bondages and healing is done. I am really trying to be as obedient as possible and forget about the "I", the nominative singular pronoun, used by a speaker in referring to himself or herself. It's all about Him now...how can it slip my mind at times???
Anyway, i have to thank Him for allowing me to be myself without being judgmental and so forgiving and accepting of all the flaws i have.
Jeremiah 32:27
"Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?" (i cannot help smiling when i read this verse heehee)
Daryl said to pray for directions and career. Can even give Him a list of where i want the job to be at, how much i want my pay to be bla bla bla. If He thinks it's time, He will open doors *wondering*
I think i know which church i should attend now. Need a cell group and bible lessons.
Saturday, September 1, 2007
1 September, 2007 - Vivian & Duncan
Had BBQ at Andrew Hallsworth's place last night. Combined efforts of the Marketing and Sales team. Great team bonding time. Sarah brought her 2 daughters there..so cute..tick-tock, tick-tock..is my biological clock ticking away hmmm if so how come i don't feel ready at all...but at least it's ticking abit now
Edwin was such a sweetie, he bbq-ed marshmallow for me cos' i burnt mine til it melted into the pit..and it was the best marshmallow, soft inside n errrmm...in short fantastic feeling. Then he bbq-ed hotdogs for me as well, my favourite food :) building relationship? hmmm but i guess i kinda like him, he is also a nice guy, just cynical. Great time chatting with him and Alex over Heineken.
Went to Shawn and Pinky's place after bbq..saw their son for the first time and gosh, he sure is a plump baby boy keke Vivian is here this weekend :))
Supposed to wake up early today to go to the tailor to alter my skirts and pants but haiz...overslept as usual lo (really wonder how come i always cannot wake up...) hang around Orchard with Haibiao, Duncan and Vivien. Had dinner at Ding Tai Fung and YES ate my favourite 小笼包..take a small bite on the skin, drink the soup and chew the whole piece yummy. Wah i ate at Ding Tai Fung for the third time this week...getting addicted to the 小笼包 liao
Vivian and Duncan are getting on fine and i think they will are a great couple. Love is as such...sweet and bitter, space and longing...and the list goes on
Life is beautiful and thank God for everything :)
PS.
Hey Rubs, the Lipscription from Benefit is really damn good! My lips is so smooth and so damn kissable too i think keke anyway lipstick glides on them now :)) Maybe we should go check out the face scrub heehee
But can't say the same for the face balm thingy that promises FLAWLESS skin lo..i still need blotters..women...suckers for such marketing gimmicks. Oh and the cheeks tint, can't seem to get them right...doesn't look balanced on my face lei
Edwin was such a sweetie, he bbq-ed marshmallow for me cos' i burnt mine til it melted into the pit..and it was the best marshmallow, soft inside n errrmm...in short fantastic feeling. Then he bbq-ed hotdogs for me as well, my favourite food :) building relationship? hmmm but i guess i kinda like him, he is also a nice guy, just cynical. Great time chatting with him and Alex over Heineken.
Went to Shawn and Pinky's place after bbq..saw their son for the first time and gosh, he sure is a plump baby boy keke Vivian is here this weekend :))
Supposed to wake up early today to go to the tailor to alter my skirts and pants but haiz...overslept as usual lo (really wonder how come i always cannot wake up...) hang around Orchard with Haibiao, Duncan and Vivien. Had dinner at Ding Tai Fung and YES ate my favourite 小笼包..take a small bite on the skin, drink the soup and chew the whole piece yummy. Wah i ate at Ding Tai Fung for the third time this week...getting addicted to the 小笼包 liao
Vivian and Duncan are getting on fine and i think they will are a great couple. Love is as such...sweet and bitter, space and longing...and the list goes on
Life is beautiful and thank God for everything :)
PS.
Hey Rubs, the Lipscription from Benefit is really damn good! My lips is so smooth and so damn kissable too i think keke anyway lipstick glides on them now :)) Maybe we should go check out the face scrub heehee
But can't say the same for the face balm thingy that promises FLAWLESS skin lo..i still need blotters..women...suckers for such marketing gimmicks. Oh and the cheeks tint, can't seem to get them right...doesn't look balanced on my face lei
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