16 September, 2007 - Community Works & Mental struggle

Went to Trinity today...actually went alone..to check out the church. When the pastor asked first timers to stand up, i did just that and received many "hi, hello and welcome". Today's topic is on care, connect and community work. Social services have always been closest to my heart..especially child prostitution, which is why going to Combodia is an unfulfilled dream. And this church actively participates in voluntary work both locally and mission trips. So...good for me lo, i signed up liao and they will be calling me up to do a personality/character and watever screening test.

I supposed i will sign up for bibles classes to prepare for baptism as well..my passion is here now :) but then again, Yan, you are rite...if i have to stash away having fun..like cannot do this, cannot do that...then it would be rather meaningless for me...cos the more i try to curb, the urge comes back stronger then ever. Maybe for now, i will take it slow...i need time to be obedient...and curb the "wildchild" in me...

Honestly speaking, i feel that clubbings, piercings and tattoos does not make me love God any less. As long as my conscience is clear and i set my priorities right...like if it's time to go for service, i will. So..please do not stereotype Christians as "must do this, must do that, should do this, should do that"...i really cannot comprehend this logic. I am struggling with this conflict in concept and i must say i am not convinced...yet. Because to me, what matters is God knows i really do love Him and why should i care how others judge me. Seems like this is wrong cos "you should love Him in God's way, not your way". Heck man, this is the headache bit...i am really just not so...homely goody goody two shoes kind of gal.

Benjamin's first year birthday today :) Just look at him, such an angel keke






Here is the post dinner table in Geylang...eaten by all 6 of us..my beloved family :)