13 October, 2007 - Sick of being sick

Attended a product training given by Edwin and Sarah yesterday afternoon..thought it was for all sales & marketing staff but it was actually sort of an introduction to all the new staff. Edwin is really a detail orientated guy..i think he would make a good teacher haha anyway stayed back to clear emails after that and hurray, cleared all and i felt relieved. Chatted with him for awhile...i think he belongs to the 30% under Maine's classification...such a coincidence and such unlikeliness...my first impression of both Jeremy and Edwin were bad...life is just so strange and unexpected sometimes...

Was supposed to go Butter Factory with Jervoise last nite to celebrate Yvonne'e birthsay but i "dua" him cos i felt unwell heehee went to Still road to buy tidbits with Jervis and Jeffrey instead :) Jervis drove and he is abit slow haiz

Woke up at almost 2pm today...feeling lethargic still...maybe the cough made me tired. Been almost 3 weeks and i cannot understand why won't it go away. I have already cut down on all the sinful fried food and dilligently drank all the cough syrup and nothing helps :(

Had to go Yishun to help move some furniture and it's so dusty that i felt giddy. Just feel so tired to be at home sitting around doing nothing...gives me a headache. Jeff, Marvin, Jasmin and me went to Ang Mo Kio hub for dinner at Subway, the sandwiches are really darn nice and healthy. Ang Mo Kio hub is so different from how it was a few years ago, there is a shopping mall with little shops selling really cool stuff. Singapore is really a shopping paradise. Jasmin skip around the shops with me and this sales lady thought she is my daughter! Is this a sign to have a kid?? Heck the idea, i hope not. Not ready to have a kid now..maybe not ever..should not cave in to peer pressure. I wonder if being afraid of the pain from childbirth is an excuse. I told Daryl that the real reason is if the world is ending soon, i should not have a child and make him/her suffer. Daryl said having a child is a blessing from God and i was wrong to think this way..but i cannot help it. Was kinda shocked that Edwin had this thought too...cos i thought i was the only crapo with this insane idea.

October...November...December...just last October, i was living life on the "wild" side...no struggles, no guilty feelings...just lotsa partying and drinking.
When will i be well again??? I hate the cough and i really wana be at some club DANCING and drinking!!! Will have some restraints now...for obvious reasons.. Funny, i actually miss Anna now..we used to joke that if she was a man, we would have an intense relationship...cos she is such an observant and slightly psychic gal. Come to think of it, we must have both "flirted" by dancing s******y to each other. (I am very, very "straight" :p )